2007 - A NEW beginning

Pastor Prince had shared through his preaching that this year 2007 is a year of new beginnings. Praise Jesus. Things started to turn for the better since I started serving in the Children's Church Ministry and I can see many blessings surrounding me and my family. There had been times that I went through tough times, but the Lord had been good to me. He stayed by me, pulling me up to the next level.

Last Friday, I just received my performance ranking and my direct supervisor told me that my performance had improved tremendously. Well, I have to give thanks and praises to Lord Jesus who gave me the strength, courage, and love to carry on with work and life. Prior to that, the entire IT dept went thru a total restructure in our position titles. HA!

Now, my position is no longer termed as an "arse hole" (haha.. plainly speaking - Senior Officer "SO"). Sounds like one though. All staff under this rank are now called Assistant Manager. Cool! well, I do pray that our pay will also be increased this year. :P I am very sure that there'll be bonus for me this year.. Last year was a devastating year for me that my ranking was so darn poor - as my previous supervisors did not even bother to justify my performance. I was so disappointed then but I said in my heart, why should I be disappointed? Why should I allow these people to trample over me? No way!

I had a total renewal of my mindset and it was so tough that I nearly gave up. Praise Jesus that He stood by me every day to comfort my heart and loving me. Well, as I was sharing with my fellow-server this morning, the Lord spoke to me recently about responsibilities. I realised something about it and I just gave all the responsibilities I had to Him who's now holding them. I told the Lord that looking after my family is not my responsibility, it is His responsibility. Providing for my family is not my responsibility, it is God's responsibility; building up my career is not my responsibility, it is God's responsibility; settling my debts is not my responsibility, it is God's responsibility; serving in the ministries is also not my responsibility, it is God's responsibility too.

When it dropped into my heart, I just simply prayed saying that the Lord is responsible for my life and everything in my life as well as my family's. So, what's left for me? Just to enjoy His love for me and all the battles I had in my life, Jesus had taken them all for me at the cross. Father, I want to have this good opinion of you all the time and I will fail on my own effort. Only You can put me in that position to have the perpetual good opinion of you.