Let not my heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid..

This verse has been ringing in my mind for quite a while now and after listening to the sermon today, Pastor Prince (through the Holy Spirit) emphasized deeply that we do not let our hearts be troubled, and neither let it be afraid. During his sermon, he mentioned that he didn't prepare to share this message and I was totally amazed.

Juz recently, my heart was very troubled with so many things, and I kept asking the Lord, when will all these nonsense end? Well, the answer was right to my ears during the sermon. My heart was indeed troubled and the Lord just didn't want me to go down again. He lifted me high up today and I really thank God for His Words.

It all started on Tue when my mom told me that a contractor came to our house for some kind of inspection on the windows. He showed my mom a document that seemed to be endorsed by the HDB and told my mom that our window panes in the bathrooms are not HDB compliant. When my mom told me about this, anger suddenly rose up within and I was totally angry. Not with my mom but with that man! He even tell my mom that if we do not fix the brackets, HDB will impose a heavy fine. That made my blood boils even more.

After I reached home from caregroup, I went to the HDB website and made some enquiries regarding this matter. Next day afternoon, a lady officer from HDB called me and I started to ask her loads of questions. When I got to know that it's not mandatory to have the brackets fixed, I was more frustrated and told the officer the entire problem. Praise be to Jesus that I did not raise my voice coz in my normal circumstances, I would have blasted at anyone. My heart was pretty much at peace with the officer. Thank God that the officer offered to give the contractor a stern warning.

Well, the best part was that my mom called my uncle who loved us a lot and he's also a contractor. He gave that man a good scolding and warned him to stay away from us. The guy was pretty adamant about wanting to have the brackets fixed, gave my uncle the terms and conditions of the "contract" and wanting to challenge him to the HDB. Little did he know that I've done my checking with the lady officer, and my uncle being a contractor by profession. My uncle and I told my mom if the guy comes again, he'll get it from me and my uncle. We will challenge him to the police and the HDB if he dares. Praise be to Jesus that he backed off, knowing that he cannot do anything and knowing that we got his details that we can nab him if he tries to be play punk with us.

I'm totally amazed that how God helped us in this and I really don't know what to say. Well, the only thing I can do is to give thanks to Jesus and Abba Father. Yesterday, I had a pretty "lousy" day, such that my direct supervisor did my performance appraisal with me. I was kindda upset over the ranking exercise coz I was ranked one of the lowest within the dept in which this never happened to me in my entire time in this bank. All these were because of last year's of constant bad events that happened from 1st Jan to 31st Dec. I realised that last year was a year of disaster instead.

My 2 direct supervisors left my team in the beginning of yr 2005, and a totally annoying colleague took over their portfolio. She wasn't even able to help justify all my performance for last year's projects that I was involved. Next, my dad passed away suddenly and I was so down for the next few months, trying to avoid everything. To make matters worst, one of my team mates is an ultimate depression and my performance was pulled down because of her. Her negative attitude added on to my already depressed heart, that I had totally given up on everything. Well, since Pastor Prince said that this year will be a year of acceleration in every areas of my life - finances, health, career, etc, I want to take this year good and proper that God will excel me in every areas of my life! I don't care how He's going to do it, I know He's going to do it.

Daddy God, teach me, lead me all by Your Spirit and Truth. I will learn to let go and let You do all things. Through Your Promise, You shall make me prosperous in health, finances, career, family and friends. For Your Covenant sake, Lord Jesus, that You fulfill everything. Amen.